curtain of wine red ☆

 in few more hours!

ah, feels like 2008 is only yesterday...

time passed so fast!
I'm not even sure if I'm ready to be called grown up . . .



and I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to soon be forgetting about things that happened these years... but time never give a damn about it, ne?




cruel.
that's all I can say.... but it's not like we have any options.





everything happened on this year will just remain as memories, just like all the past years of my 15 years life.
I wish it doesn't have to be that way, but like I said, we're left to no options.



and all I can do is make every year more meaningful, so i will have no regrets later on.






NEXT YEAR I'M GOING TO BE A BETTER PERSON!
I WILL FIND EIKICHI, I WILL GET OVER KUTIL, I WILL DEAL WITH EVERY PROBLEMS I'M GOING TO FACE, I WILL BE 10cms TALLER, I WILL LOSE SOME OF MY WEIGHT, I WILL HAVE BRIGHTER SKIN, I WILL HAVE A BETTER LIFE, I WILL MAKE PEOPLE PROUD, I WILL WORK HARDER FOR THINGS I DO, AND I WILL BE ONE STEP CLOSER TO ONE THING I CALLED DREAM!!!!

gimana sih caranya biar bisa jadi ikhlas?

gue bukannya mo sok religious ato apa..
cuma gue rasa yg bikin ganjelan di hati gue itu gara2 gue belom bisa ikhlas >_>
sure, gue udah pasrah, gue nggak papa sama keadaan yang sekarang.

gue mau ngeiklasin aja dah tuh penyakit gue mau kemana.. cuma kayaknya gue belom bersih gitu.
masih ada sisa2 bekas 'penyakit' gue itu yg belom bener2 ilang. jadi gue seringkali masih suka ngarep2 nggak jelas.


dibalik hiatus sama kepasrahan gue gue masih suka ngarep kalo si kutil tuh bakal sadar someday, trus nyariin gue.
tapi mana boleh kayak gitu..

selama gue masih punya pikiran kayak gitu semakin gue punya kesempatan sakit, semakin gue punya kesempatan buat kecewa lagi.


semakin gue gak bisa lepas dari dia. =_=;



bantuin gue dong...

*pusing*



oh ya kenapa gue memutuskan nulis di jugem?
karena kebanyakan orang gak ada yg tau blog jugem gue. XD
lagian kangen *pelok2 jugem*

 I'm starting to love amebaaaaa--! <3




I've been updating it almost every single day.
and I posted a video. it's pretty offensive so I set it to amenba only lol


even so I can't seem to get enough of jugem.
I've been writing this blog ever since the first time I know that bastard.


*hugs the laptop screen*


oh there's a japanese phone that will be available in Indonesia.
but the price is too high D8
I don't think my parents will buy me that.... but it's so freaking cool.



I want it so bad.
;_____;

 sebel banget sama sodara gue anaknya kepsuk yg paling tua >A<

nginep di rumah dari kmaren
trs abis itu dia jelekin hijakiiiiiiiiiiii


gue kasih liat yg race wish kan

abis itu depan2nya kan masih simple
eh dia yg menghina gtu. gw dah kesel aja, tapi gue tau dia orangnya kek apa
ya gue cuekin


trus terus aja sepanjang lagu dia jelek2in hijaki
pas udah mulai part rumitnya baru deh diem

=__= abis itu lanjutin lagi jelek2in
kalo gak sabar gue udah rajang tuh bibirnya



pas lagi ngumpul di meja makan gue ngambil susu
trus dia bilang "buset nggak tambah gendut tuh malem2 minum susu"
WELL KALO MAKIN GENDUT JUGA YANG BLEBER BADAN GUE
badan dia juga 5 kali lebih gede daripada gue >_>

gue diemin aja

trus gue lagi minum dia tau2 bilang
"itu mukanya kenapa sih, kayak dikutuk aja"

JERAWAT LO BILANG DIKUTUK?
MUKALO ISINYA SUMUR SEMUA KAYAK GITU ELO BILANG APA?
jambannya setan kalo ye jadinya ancur gitu


gue bales aja  "kalo elo mau ngomentarin muka gue, liat dulu mukalo udah bener apa belom?" gue jawabnya sih nyante. tapi ampuh noh dia langsung diem


sebenernya gue kasian ama kepsuk...
tapi dianya gitu sih >_> gue tuh udah diem aja dari kmaren dia mo ngomong apa nggak gue sautin

cuma makin didiemin makin kurangajar mulutnya

kalo dia bisa ngomentarin orang harus bisa nerima komentar dong?
yaudah mamam aja tuh

sebel gue

pantes udah tua kagak dapet2 pacar, kelakuan udah kayak taik gtu

 
I NEED A JAPANESE COUUURRSEE

 just want to inform you that versailles is nominated for askew magazine's 2008 award. 8D

click here or here to vote for them and make sure you do because they deserve the award. ;3

aduh gue stress sama street team gue
bukan karena promosi

tapi karena ini indonesian street team T_____T
bahasa indo gue is like.... BAD, no seriously it's BADDDD!!

gue tuh selalu bingung kalo mau ngepost entry.
karena gue nggak bisa berbahasa indonesia yg baik dan benar, gue bisa ngomong, tapi nggak untuk nulis announcement yang official2 gitu =.=

selama ini gue selalu nyoba nulis pakek bahasa formal kalo ada announcement ato harus menjelaskan segala tetek bengek street team ke orang cuma SUSAAAAHHH

afdhodwidhegwfw

dan gue ngerasa nggak enak kalo baca tulisan gue yg modelnya kayak gtu =3=
maunya sih pakek bahasa inggris aja, bahasa inggris formal gak formal jatohnya sama2 ajah, ya at least agak nyantai gitu meskipun intinya di formal2in... apa itu pikiran gue aja?

cuma ini kan indonesian street team >.> y kudu pakek bahasa indo lah.
mana kmren juga ada orang yg nggak ngerti bahasa inggris, kn repot


T___T


I need some indonesian lesson...

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by the way check on my new blog sometimes, I think I'll update a lot on that one.
however I refuse to neglect this one! NEVERRRR




...yes that does mean I will have to post on two blogs each time i'm going to update.
D:

I made a new blog.
just... forget about the fc2 one, I don't think I'll continue writing on that one.


I'll keep this one on jugem, and as for my new blog... I was convinced to make one, beside I've been wanting to create one for myself before.

http://ameblo.jp/monster-r

so there it is... sorry for the lack inspiration for the url. XD
I couldn't think of anything else

there's still so much to modify.. but I've been spending hours just working on whatever I was working >.>

do you think the layout is good enough?
I don't seem to find one that suit me well =A=;

anyway, go and check.. I have updated about my cellphone

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SEIRA LO DODOL DODOL DODOL DODOOOOLL TO THE MAX!
kalo gue nggak pinter ngeles kita udah digiles rebek nih sekarang!

aduh seiiiiiiiiiii laen kali lebih pinter dikit dong. T_________T

 
I think my cellphone got even worse by each day >_<
this is H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E ! !

;_;

about two days ago the screen split into two, and the part which suppose to be on the top is moving on the bottom and so did the bottom, it was moving to the top XD;;;;
and the screen went hard mix all of a sudden... oh and also negative!
T__T;;;

it keeps freezing every now and then, I hate it.



my dad told me to tell him once I found a new phone that I want, but I have no interest in any phone until now. D8
this is sucks.

 
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I didn't get to post that yesterday. xD;


so.. who's going to PRJ?
I really want to go there, but I don't think I will.
I want to do another promotion... ;~; it's been a while since the last one.
well, some street team member like Kana and Babon did their own promotion before, but none of them write any report (_ _ ;)
so I absolutely have no clue how the promotions went.

it might look like I've abandoned my street team, but that's far from the truth.
I keep promoting through the internet the whole time, and already arranging some plans for the last promotion of 2008, on battle of harajuku 2.
we still haven't decide what we're going to do, but I want to make the last promotion of the year to be the best among all! > <


we still have some time left, hopefully we'll figure out something really good.



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I want Ruki bjd! ...anyone willing to buy it for me?
I'll give you the tiniest part of my heart but shh, no telling Eikichi
:3

*gila*

 
my cellphone is broken ashdhkksdksdks D<

whenever I'm trying to text or justs simply hit the keypad the screen goes blank, and sometimes there are so many lines on the screen.. I don't know how to describe but I have to turn it off all the time and start typing all over again!
stupid thing >_>

I told my parents about this and they didn't even offer me a new phone. they told me to use my sister's ugly new phone instead. wth I've been keeping this one for about two years mom! don't I deserve a new one? I don't want to use my sister's, it does look cool on the outside but the inside looks so cheap >.>


I WANT A NEW PHONEEE ASGKIJYEGSK ;A;




oh don't text me too much, I'll be so lazy to reply. and i also think it's time for some of you to stop shitting on my inbox with spam okay.
if you want to talk then text directly to me, don't you wish i will reply to spam because I won't, I deleted them.

well it's okay to send that kind of message, CUMA GUE BENCI KALO GUE BACA SPAM ISINYA CUMA TENTANG ORANG MARAH2 GAK GENAH.
WOI, ELU MARAH SAMA SAPE SIH? BUKAN GUE KAN? YAUDAH GAUSAH IKUT NGOMEL DI INBOX GUE DONG!
gue juga gak terima sms tentang bad luck elu, emang elo doang mahluk di dunia yang kena sial? gue gak kalah sialnya dari elu jadi gausah deh bagi2 kesialan lo ke gue.

huh
bukannya apa2 sih... cuma seperti yg kalian tau, I have issue with my mood.
gue gak mau tau2 ngomel ke elu cuma gara2 sms. nggak penting kan? jadi mohon mulai sekarang dihindari. >_>


udah ah capek

XD

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doesn't mean I hate you guys okay?
I don't. gue cuma capek aja kalo gue harus baca sms yang depressing. kalo elo mau curhat, telfon gue, sms langsung ke gue, jangan ngespam. kalo elu ngespam gue justru mikir gue gak punya kepentingan sama masalah lo.

*minggat*